So, what should I do in a day when my concentration&inspiration has shut down so thoroughly, but my conscience kinda doesn't allow me to do nothing, BUT even learning Estonian (still my favorite course!) doesn't seem appealing?
So, writing. Ah, sweet procrastination.
Surprisingly it has been very rare guest this semester. Or maybe it's not that surprising, considering where I am studying. And I can't disagree with my Finnish flatmate - everyone here seems very "studying-oriented" -unlike from our home universities. Of course, there are always courses which are boring and which you don't really like, and you still (I know I'm doing it) occasionally moan and complain about the study workload, but it still is... very, very good.
Even my dear mother says that I never seemed that happy about studying (on a side note - I have, more or less, always liked studying) at my university in Latvia :D I am a bit afraid that it is pink glasses period, but, hey - yesterday we had MIDTERM (I still can't get over this) presentations about group work. Hey, wow, wait, what? Too soon!
And, believe it or not, but I already got "Estonian-language-disappointment".
For those who don't know - in Estonian language not only some verbs (f.e. like in English "go-went-gone" etc), but also nouns are irregular for different cases. So, there is this small "Poe street" in Tartu, which, of course, I associate with Edgar. A. Poe, one of my favorite writers, and his portrait is even stencil painted on one of the houses. So really cool, right? Wrong.
Because Estonian name for shop is "pood", but it's genitive form, which is used in basically all street names, is "poe". So, it is simply "Shop's street" :(
Then again the "art" on walls here is quite different from Riga. Of course, there are a lot of beautiful graffitis in Riga, but here they have even "Clockwork orange". And really? Clockwork orange! Makes me want to re-read the book again....
Another side note to myself - I should return to reading literature (not just articles about tandem masspectrometry :D ) I swear, I haven't turned on my Kindle for three weeks now, and it is such a blasphemy. Still have to finish "Picture of Dorian Gray" and to start Murakami's "Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World" (as suggested by my dad) or try to find e-book version of Andrus Kivirähk "The Man Who Spoke Snakish".
Ah, the important problems in life :D
But, overall, more and more I catch myself feeling very happily content. Of course, I always want more, I want to dance and learn and love and and and... but somehow it feels like the biggest things have slipped into their places, smoothing the edges and leaving everything inside me as mirror-like sea.
Maybe it is just due to the fact that this (a bit annoyingly pretty) autumn is smoothly becoming grey and dark, full of promise of more darkness and then snow - absolute and blinding and freezing-to-your-bones winter. My favorite time of the year ♥
In the end - band of the last few weeks: Ewert And The Two Dragons. Listen to some Jolene
P.s. Apparently writing (mixed with coffee and chocolate) was the right step, because as "appetite grows with eating" I'm now inspired to study some Estonian.
We have started to learn about third case form, partitive, and when I informed Laiksne about this (she has learnt Estonian grammar for a year), she simply replied "Welcome to hell". Ah, well. If it is too easy, you are doing it wrong, eh?
